So I know this blog is supposed to be focused on our journey with glaucoma, but that’s only one small part of our live. Today like many, maybe even most people I spent some time making Thanksgiving preparations.
Waking up this morning baking desserts for Thanksgiving was just a chore (one I was happy to complete, but a chore none the less) I was wrong , it turned out to be a fun way to connect with my 3 year old daughter Sage and a great start to our day. Watching the joy on her face as she added ingredients, and mixed and prepared just melted my heart. We made a pumpkin pie and apple crisp. Our day started off with fun which helped her have a great attitude throughout the day. We had fun playing and learning. She was even super cute with her brother and helped mommy clean.
Sometimes it is so easy to just put the kids in front a movie or tell them to go play, but what they crave is our attention. She was happy to comply with my requests because she was involved in what I was doing. If I said wait, she waited, if I said mommy will do this part , she let me. I’m so amazed at how well she did today. I’m so glad for the amazing day we had together as s family and the connections we made as a mother daughter team.
Time it stands still
Everyday I think of you , wishing you were here
So many times wishing you were near
Longing for your strong embrace
I even miss you invading on my space
The little things that tore us apart , seem to be what I miss most
I miss your scratchy smokers voice and even your insults
A mothers love it never fades , even though she’s gone
For all you did wrong, you did so much right
Thank you for showing me how to love, to forgive and to be kind
But most of all I thank you for all you’ve left behind
With the holidays coming up and all the wonderful craziness that has been life I’ve often thought of my mother. Wrapping my head around it being the fourth holiday season since she’s left this world is mind boggling. I hope there’s a spectator stand in heaven , and she can see how beautiful and amazing her grand babies are. I’m sorry she doesn’t get to be here to watch them grow, but I promise I’m making her proud (most days, we all screw up sometimes ya know) I can’t even begin to imagine how she would be with all Atlas’ diagnosis’s and appointments ( if you knew my mom , you’d know what I mean) I can just see and hear her getting all worked up in my head. All I know is I’ll forever be her peanut and my babies will forever be my goose, and my magoo.
I’m getting so excited about the holiday season. It’s my favorite time of year. I love the smells, the yummy food, the family , friends and laughter. I’ve decided to host thanksgiving this year , which will be pretty low key but I’m still happy about it. My head is spinning with ideas of what I want to make, obviously the traditional turkey but for the sides do I want to do plain old stuffing or stuffing with cranberries or some other fancy smancy stuffing. I know this sounds ridiculous because it’s just stuffing , but you know it’s more than that. It’s the taste , the flavor the conversations it will start and the memories that will be made.. whether we have a big turn out or a small cozy gathering.
Then there’s the parade. There’s nothing like the enjoyment of watching the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade ( this year I’m figuring out how to stream it beforehand, so we don’t miss out like last year). Sharing that tradition with my kids will be awesome! I dream of being there to experience it in person …. some day it will happen.
But really the nest part is time spent with my loved ones making memories to last a lifetime. Which is why I love this season so much I get to see my family a bit more than I regularly do and I’m always okay with that.